Here SHE is!!

We did not find out the sex of either of our first two children and we planned to do the same this time around, BUT....
I don't know if it was our wonderful ultrasound tech that seemed to be as happy as we were to see our baby on the screen that we let our guard down,
OR, if it was the fact that my closest girlfriends have been begging me to save them the agony of waiting by finding out this time,
OR if it was my desire to know what I should do with all of Elliott's clothes that are taking up lots of space in my garage,
OR if it was Sean saying "it is up to you!" while we are laying there on the table, or WHAT,

But we just caved in and went for it!!

Well, first we said yes, then we said no, then we looked at each other with the classic "what is the right thing to do in this situation" looks on our faces. So then we went for it.  The tech gave us a special picture in a separate envelope that we could do what ever we wanted with.  When we got back to our car, we made a plan to look at all the cute pictures that we just got of the baby's hands and feet and profile etc, and then we would open up the last envelope.  So we took our time and looked at all the pictures we got and then pulled ourselves together to open THE envelope.  I had just torn the first end of the envelope open when the ultrasound tech came running up to our car window waving her arms.  We had been so chit-chatty that she had forgotten to get the heart rate and she needed us to return to her office! So....we put down the envelope and went back into the office and took care of business and then finally made it back to our envelope in the car again...talk about building the suspense!! Hahaha!
And then we saw.
And then I cried.  I think Sean did too.
And then we hugged.
And then we went back and looked at all the pictures again with new eyes, knowing that we were looking at OUR DAUGHTER (even the word daughter feels a little odd coming out of my mouth).
And then we just drove home and I don't think that I stopped talking for one minute...poor Sean. :)

And since that moment, I cannot stop thinking about HER.  I have looked at her pictures again and again, I was awake well after 3am last night just thinking about our family and HER and teenage girls and you name it....and I just wish she was here already!!
I am glad that we found out, but when SHE was still a question mark, I didn't find myself desperate to have her in my arms like I am now.  It is like I know her- I think I know her name, and even her face (profile) looks familiar to me, and I just got to see her move around for an hour, and even Oliver has been talking about HER, but now I have to wait 20 more weeks to hold her and I just don't really feel like waiting :)

But I will. Happily. And with a heart full of gratitude for HER life, that has already begun.