Me: Well, it feels like a lot has been going on but the truth is that very little has been going on. I am officially 13 weeks pregnant (although according to my calculations I am 15 weeks and they robbed me of two very hard weeks of baby-growing-credit but I can't argue with the doctors on this so, oh well) For some reason, I thought that this time around, I would be able to handle morning sickness better than I did with Oliver. I don't know why I thought that but maybe it was my way of psyching myself out so that I wouldn't collapse in a heap of discouragement upon finding out that I was pregnant. Well, no matter how much psyching myself out I did, it finally caught up with me. I have been miserable for about 6 weeks now and spend most of my time looking at the clock and not believing how many more hours there are left until Oliver can go down for his next nap. I know, that sounds terrible, doesn't it? It is just hard to keep up with a busy (and strong/fearless)12 month old little guy when all I want to do is curl up in a ball in a dark room. I find that my patience have dwindled down to nothing and that making decisions or concentrating on anything makes my head spin. I literally have cut shopping trips short because walking down the aisles makes me feel dizzy. I remember thinking while I was pregnant with Oliver that the next time I will have to go through this, I will have a toddler to run around after...and now here I am. But, I remind myself, all this because I get to have a baby. I am so lucky and I am doing exactly what I always wanted.
So I guess I was lying when I said earlier that I haven't blogged because there is no time- there is LOTS of time, it's just that the times I feel OK get filled up so quickly catching up on all the more important things that I am not doing while I feel yucky (like brushing my teeth or getting dressed). Thank goodness for my dear husband who has been a wonderful partner to me these last few weeks: he picks up a lot of my slack and doesn't make me feel guilty about what is going on. So that is me in a nutshell. Now onto the more exciting people in my family-
Sean: After 5 years of training to be a firefighter/paramedic, Sean is this close (picture my thumb and forefinger about an inch apart) to getting hired at not just any old fire department, but what we would consider his dream fire department. It is in the town next to my hometown (where all my family still resides) and it is the kind of community that we would be happy to be a part of and we think that it is enough money to allow me to be a stay at home mom...like I said, our dream job! He has passed all the interviews and a lie detector test, he has been finger printed and is the midst of a rigorous background check- which we have every reason to believe he will pass. (this is Sean we're talking about here!) It has been such an exciting turn of events considering he has applied, tested and interviewed all over northern California with no success and to suddenly be in the position he is in now. We are truly thankful to God for providing this open door- and pray every day that it stays open. Since we don't know for sure yet, we don't want to get our hopes up but it is too hard not to think that this could be it! It is a very strange combination of feelings but it mostly feels great and I couldn't be more proud of my Sean.
Ok, ok, now to the star of the family- Oliver: Our precious baby is quickly turning in a little boy. We celebrated his first birthday at the end of May and I still cannot believe how fast that year went. Oliver is the busiest little man I have ever known- constantly in motion and curious about everything around him. He loves to dance and has recently discovered how fun it is to have an audience. If people are laughing at him he keeps doing whatever he just did again, but with more gusto- and then he claps and cheers for himself or says "ta-da!" with his arms over his head. His current loves include me, the garden hose (on of course), and being outside. He has finally learned to enjoy the stroller which is great for me since taking him out in it is one of the few things I can do these days. The best part is that he sings the whole time- sometimes it is just his own spontaneous melody but he usually sings (just the tune) the ABCs. It is so sweet to hear his little happy voice- it just melts my heart. My favorite part of Oliver is that although he is a crazy and stubborn little guy, he has the sweetest side to him. He gives "loves" (hugs and kisses) to his stuffed animals with no prompting from Sean or I and he will often stop whatever fun thing he is doing to come lay his head on my lap or against my back and give me little pats and say "awwww" before continuing on about his business. Seriously, I just want to eat him up when he does these things and it just warms my heart to see these little glimpses into his personality. I am blessed every day by who he is and his love for me.
So, that is a snapshot of our lives these days- exciting, sick and very happy. Along with a million other things that I have not been keeping up with is taking pictures. That combined with the fact that Oliver stops whatever he is doing as soon as the camera comes out has resulted in very poor documentation of the last few months but here is what we've got. Enjoy...and don't forget to pray for Sean's job!
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